Will I ever be happy?

first_img AD Quality Auto 360p 720p 1080p Top articles1/5READ MOREBlues bury Kings early with four first-period goals 160Want local news?Sign up for the Localist and stay informed Something went wrong. Please try again.subscribeCongratulations! You’re all set! When was the last time you were happy? I muse on the thought constantly.I acknowledge that I am not unhappy, far from it actually. And I do not find myself lacking in joy because I am not accepted by my “peers,” but actually because I think constantly about my future.Will I have a happy marriage? Will I contribute to the lessening of ignorance in people, in my children? Finding myself so occupied with all these thoughts and an eternity of homework, I do not allow myself the opportunity to relax and bask in the gift that is life.I spend more time at school than I do at home; I only go home to sleep, and even then I dream about school situations constantly.For example, last night I had a dream where I was in Las Vegas with my advanced placement biology teachers. For some reason, I won $999 on a slot machine, and I dreamed I would be able to share it with my classmates so we could pay off our multiple AP tests.Yes, multiple, I kid you not.I am taking five AP classes this year. I have seven periods in school, one of which is a zero period. Other than my news staff class, my only other non-AP class is drill team – the pride of PiHi, of which I am president, rank leader and captain of the first-ever High Kick team.A loaded plate, I say!Despite my lack of sleep, and every engaged waking moment, I believe I have an uncommon appreciation for my life – especially for a teenager, and perhaps even among adults.Whenever I do see my mom, I embrace her for as long as I possibly can. I tell her ardently that I love her, wishing to engrave it in her mind, and I cherish her presence in my life because I believe life is too short.I appreciate my health infinitely – the fact that I am able to walk, to express my thoughts coherently, to do everything that a human being with all God-given liberty should and could be able to do.I appreciate that I have a love of nature and wish to become one with it, despite the fact that I live in Southern California and the infernal smog comes between me and my ambitious goal.I long for the day when I find peace and am able to transmit that serenity to those surrounding me and coexist in harmony and happiness.But if I am not experiencing that now, how will I ever? Christina Hernandez, 17, is a Pioneer High School senior. She plans to attend college and major in aerospace engineering, and hopes to work for NASA or the Jet Propulsion Laboratory.last_img read more